TOKIO HOTEL!!!!!

IN LESS THAT 24 hours!!

AHHHHHH!!!!

I feel soo fangirly right now. XD

TOKIO HOTEL ROCKS!!!

Lterally. THEY DO!

I LOVE THEM!!

Sports 2010.

Honestly saying, Sports Day this year was SHIT. It sure didn't feel like the 50th anniversary of sports day of Assunta. I can't blame the students. Teachers on the other hand. FUCK! I don't think they give a damn. Screw that. THEY DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN! Stupid Assunta teachers. They think they are superior but when it comes to money, who do they turn to?? Us. The friggin' students who they have done a lot of wrong and injustice to. Can't they just invest some time and effort for us, the students,???

Moving on,

I won:

2nd for 100m

2nd for 200m

2nd for 4x100m.

See how much of a failure I am? All fucking silvers. no golds. I lost to the same person. A runner failed us. I can officially call myself a loser now. Not that I haven't been. =.=

All in all, I guess from another perspective, I did pretty well. But You must understand that I have my own goals and I haven't been reaching them. I want to. I need to. I must. To stop myself from crying to myself to sleep every single night because I still am a failure. So, Next year, I want all GOLDS.

Goodbye.

Extracted.

Love is Patient,

Love is Kind,

Love is Slowly,

Losing your Mind!

So today was... okay. Had a text from someone. Turned out that it was his sister who sent the messages. XD

The Verse above is from the movie 27 Dresses. I don't how how and I don't know why but I never tire from watching it. Hahaha!

I didn't think about falling, deceiving or anything like it much today. Hahaha. Though i was actually really pissed off at someone for being so unatheletic yet still wants to participate and be called an athelete. In the Emo world we call these "Posers".

And yes, I do have a crush. Not a good one. But at least I like someone. XD

Last, Dano if you're reading this. Pay attention to the fisrt paragraph and try to feel what i feel right now. I'm sure you know me enough to know big brother. =)

I smile because I have to,

Not because I want to,

Some people think it's scary,

But it's just fake; and empty.

Act 1732

I don't know why I even bother with this blog. I've so much to say not write. But I can't say anything. so I keep to myself. Tell me. Why do I care?
Nobody cares about my feelings. My ability. Nobody cares about me. I think I sound selfish there but its the truth. I don't think anyone gives a damn. I'm unimportant. I am puny.

I do not MATTER.

Numb

Numb.
Numb-ness is a feeling that torments me these days. I don't feel anything else. Hmmm, maybe tired-ness. But that in a way is worse than being just numb. I think maybe, I'm stressing too much. I failed my add maths, Maths.. I lost in long jump and 200m. =( I'm so Useless, hopeless, insecure. I don't deserve this world.

Life goes on..

Form 4
Science Stream.
Vice President of Karate - do
Pianist for the Choir Club.
Representative for Hermine Sports house.

Hate. Love. Tomorrow IS Valentines Day. I'll be alone. Lonely.

So many things I'd like to express,
I just don't know where to start,
Feelings I'd hate to repress,
Someone, Rip it out of my heart!

-hayani-
13/2/10